Happy bloody birthday darling Jess. How brilliant you are, with your frank honesty, your bravery and somehow your love of life. Always thinking of you. Cxxx
What a text! I am sure that James has left his legacy inside you. Now, you are nurturing his seeds worldwide through your/his words and feelings, definitely! Congrats darling!
Please take the time to pamper yourself on your 45th Birthday 14th February. My sadness for your on going torture is unrelenting- will it ever get a little easier to bare? I can’t even think how you spell bare. Then I think -teddy bear -cuddly toys and how in my own case I’ve started collecting the odd knitted one……a sweet lady knitted this character called ‘Ben’ and it sits on my sofa, now alongside a kiwi, ( I’ll tell you a story about that in a minute), but meanwhile Ben has taken a life of his own as any position he adopts in the corner takes on a mood which becomes quite noticeable and rather sweet. I brought the kiwi back from New Zealand when we’d gone to see the real bird and hadn’t managed to see one so I got my money BAck and then felt sorry for the zoo owner and bought the stuffed one.
The kiwis beak is so long and often sticks out near to Ben- they have become the odd couple with their body positions saying so much. I am thinking of writing a story about them.Did you know that Christopher Robin stories were written by a man (A A Milne, who failed to be able to relate to his son and so he wrote these famous stories instead!
I’ve Lost my dog now and I am sobbing my heart out for the little fellow. It’s unimaginable pain to not have him around but I hope to see him some day in the kingdom of Heaven with Ernest my first dog who will also be there. You will see Jamess too and we will all have the most amazing party away from this fallen world of misery where there will be no suffering and pain. Personally I can’t wait.
'My sadness for your on going torture is unrelenting' - love this line, makes me feel so comforted and less alone, it is unrelenting but my heart and skin is like leather now-I never can remember whether its bare or bear, ???? hahahaha so funny you said that.
Helllo, I am sooooooooooo sorry I have only just read this, I started reading it and then my ADHD brain (which I am convinced is what is wrong with it, but who needs labels? me maybe...) took me elsewhere. and now I see you have lost your dog and I feel awful for not reading sooner. I am so sorry, I just cannot imagine, every time I look at Ernie I think oh how on earth will i live without you. the attachment is dangerous. I hope you are feeling ok. You must cry and cry. it's so important to cry. love your story about Ben and the bird. yes, you must write it. the way you notice their body positions, i found that so interesting. I have five paying subscribers now! can you believe. I honestly can't believe people are willing to pay £50 a year to read my work, just utterly incredible. one of them is my mother, which is just as touching of course. I am hoping to come and see you but so much to do with clearing house!!!! feel so overwhelmed and starting realise that I am going to find it very difficult to leave this house. xxxx
Wishing you luck with the second interview and hoping Tresco is all you hope for and more. Wishing you a happy birthday for tomorrow also.
Beautiful pictures as always and the most lovely words. The way you write with such detail and emotion is just gorgeous. I will look forward to coming to see James’ art work on the 22nd March and enjoying a cream tea in his honour.
Hello Lou, Thank you for this lovely message. I am so sorry taken me so long to reply, been so hectic. birthdays are always like that aren't they! Lots of love to you, i honestly can't believe the way people are enjoying my writing, I just waffle on, it comes and it comes and if people can enjoy it, well thats a dream come true. incredible!!!! xxxxxxxxxxx
Happy bloody birthday darling Jess. How brilliant you are, with your frank honesty, your bravery and somehow your love of life. Always thinking of you. Cxxx
Happy Birthday for tomorrow, Jess.
Good luck on Tresco - sounds very exciting. Sending you both (and Ernie) lots of love 😘 xx
And, I am very happy you are here!
What a text! I am sure that James has left his legacy inside you. Now, you are nurturing his seeds worldwide through your/his words and feelings, definitely! Congrats darling!
Please take the time to pamper yourself on your 45th Birthday 14th February. My sadness for your on going torture is unrelenting- will it ever get a little easier to bare? I can’t even think how you spell bare. Then I think -teddy bear -cuddly toys and how in my own case I’ve started collecting the odd knitted one……a sweet lady knitted this character called ‘Ben’ and it sits on my sofa, now alongside a kiwi, ( I’ll tell you a story about that in a minute), but meanwhile Ben has taken a life of his own as any position he adopts in the corner takes on a mood which becomes quite noticeable and rather sweet. I brought the kiwi back from New Zealand when we’d gone to see the real bird and hadn’t managed to see one so I got my money BAck and then felt sorry for the zoo owner and bought the stuffed one.
The kiwis beak is so long and often sticks out near to Ben- they have become the odd couple with their body positions saying so much. I am thinking of writing a story about them.Did you know that Christopher Robin stories were written by a man (A A Milne, who failed to be able to relate to his son and so he wrote these famous stories instead!
I’ve Lost my dog now and I am sobbing my heart out for the little fellow. It’s unimaginable pain to not have him around but I hope to see him some day in the kingdom of Heaven with Ernest my first dog who will also be there. You will see Jamess too and we will all have the most amazing party away from this fallen world of misery where there will be no suffering and pain. Personally I can’t wait.
You are loved by us all and by God
Love joy peace to you
'My sadness for your on going torture is unrelenting' - love this line, makes me feel so comforted and less alone, it is unrelenting but my heart and skin is like leather now-I never can remember whether its bare or bear, ???? hahahaha so funny you said that.
Helllo, I am sooooooooooo sorry I have only just read this, I started reading it and then my ADHD brain (which I am convinced is what is wrong with it, but who needs labels? me maybe...) took me elsewhere. and now I see you have lost your dog and I feel awful for not reading sooner. I am so sorry, I just cannot imagine, every time I look at Ernie I think oh how on earth will i live without you. the attachment is dangerous. I hope you are feeling ok. You must cry and cry. it's so important to cry. love your story about Ben and the bird. yes, you must write it. the way you notice their body positions, i found that so interesting. I have five paying subscribers now! can you believe. I honestly can't believe people are willing to pay £50 a year to read my work, just utterly incredible. one of them is my mother, which is just as touching of course. I am hoping to come and see you but so much to do with clearing house!!!! feel so overwhelmed and starting realise that I am going to find it very difficult to leave this house. xxxx
Wishing you luck with the second interview and hoping Tresco is all you hope for and more. Wishing you a happy birthday for tomorrow also.
Beautiful pictures as always and the most lovely words. The way you write with such detail and emotion is just gorgeous. I will look forward to coming to see James’ art work on the 22nd March and enjoying a cream tea in his honour.
Lots of love to Simon also xxx
Hello Lou, Thank you for this lovely message. I am so sorry taken me so long to reply, been so hectic. birthdays are always like that aren't they! Lots of love to you, i honestly can't believe the way people are enjoying my writing, I just waffle on, it comes and it comes and if people can enjoy it, well thats a dream come true. incredible!!!! xxxxxxxxxxx